Wednesday, July 15, 2009


Assalamualaikum my friends,

When I walked into the doctor's office the other day for my follow up, he was so happy to see me because I'd put on weight. In two months, my weight had increased by 3 kg. I am proud to say that my weight is now 48 kg, even more than it was before cancer.

He checked inside my mouth and declared that everything looks ok. However, he also said that I have to be on the look out all the time for any change at all in the oral cavity because should there be any recurrence, they would want to catch it as early as possible. He went on and said that from his experience, for a young patient like me with no risk factor, a lot of time, a recurrence results in losing the battle. It seems that there nothing we can do to prevent the recurrence. So, what should I do now? Just wait for the time??

Ouch! ..that was like a smack in the face. After a few seconds, I thought to myself, well, if its time to go, you go. But before the time comes, before my time is up, there are a lot of things I can do. Thinking about it is also useless and a waste of time. Life goes on.

Oh yes, I am going to finish up the book I've started writing. And maybe do some travelling. Why not? I am not bedridden. Hey, life is great..

Bye, for now.

"Always stay awake because cancer never sleeps"


BLOGitse said...

Good for your 3 kgs!
Could you tell me how you manage in a situation when other person doesn't understand what you mean. What do you do? draw, write, act?
If you need a train ticket, do you write the destination on paper at home before you go?
How about in a bank or other offices?

It must have been a hard road for you...

You're so positive and realistic that every woman/man should read your blog!

Have a nice day! :)

Sharifah Rashidah bt. Syed Ahmad said...


Thanks for dropping by my blog.

I am understood most of the time. However in the situations that you mentioned, I either write down or use a lot of body language. Draw? Hmm..haven't thought of that. Maybe I should try that sometime. Who knows I might become an artist after this...haha

Yes, it is hard and it used to be rather humiliating. But now, i have accepted that as a part of life.

In a bank, I have no problem because most transactions are done through the machines. So, no problem there.

Thanks for your kind words.

Anonymous said...

I was diagnosed in January with oral cancer. I have had two operations and am about to begin radiation. In my search for information I came across your blog and have been following it, looking for hope through your experience. Ultimately I know our hope is in God. We are in His loving hands. This is a scary disease, I have found comfort in your outlook. May God bless you.

x-smkam said...

In fact when my gf met you few weeks ago she told me you are now more fleshy ... look even better then before......

.... sudah boleh go bck to sch....

Dr. Swill said...

I'm so glad for the good news. Take that trip and enjoy. I'm sure you see the world differently now and savor every moment. Take that trip and see the world as you never have before!

Peace B

Dr. Swill said...


How are you doing? I hope you are well. You haven't posted in a while. I hope you're just taking a little break.

I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you.

Peace Brian

denise said...

Hi Sis
How are you doing? I hope your silence is only an indication that you are busy with the fasting month and other stuff. Hope you are feeling better and upbeat about yourself.
Please do take time to update us... I have found a lot of encouragement reading your blog.
Take care